31DC: Day 19

Sunday, December 19, 2010

Something I Regret

The biggest thing that I regret would be not spending more time with my grandparents when I had the chance.  Not to say that I didn't spend a lot of time with them, but I still wish I had more.  And I really regret that I was more interested in going to a horse show on the first day Pap was at Good Samaritan.  Because of that I missed my chance to see him when he was still aware and able to talk to us.  I did spend as much time there as I could in his last few weeks.  And even though it was really hard for me to see him like that, I'm glad that I did.  Even if Pap wasn't aware of what was going on, I'm glad that he was surrounded by family when he did pass on.  Mom, Dad, Aunt Sandy, Uncle Ralph and I were all in the room with him.  I was sitting in the chair by his bed, and was holding his hand.  He knew that he was loved by us all until the very end.  I just wish that I could have had more time.  I wish Bum Bev had been here to see me graduate, both high school and college.  I wish they both could be here to see me get married (whenever that might be).

Alright this is super depressing and making my cry.  So I think it's time to say goodnight.