31DC: Day 20

Monday, December 20, 2010

Something I Miss

I miss having Blair in the same state!  LOL.  No really I do miss having my best friend close by.  Yeah, we talk on the phone all the time, but really it's not the same as being able to talk face to face.  I can't just call her up to go to the store, or the bar, or just to hang out.

Following on yesterday's post, I miss Bum Bev and Pap Bill.  It's been almost 14 years since we lost Bum Bev and just over 2 since Pap.  And I still miss them everyday.  Sometimes it's the stupidest things that will make me think about them and get all teary eyed.  When Jeffrey got married in September he asked me to light a memory candle for Bum and Pap.  That really meant a lot to me to be included in that way and also that he was including them in the ceremony.

Lastly, just a few months ago, my (long term) relationship ended rather unexpectedly.  With no warning to me, nothing really.  He just stopped returning my calls, answering my texts, everything.  I don't know why, I wasn't given any kind of an explanation.  Just suddenly all communication ceased.  I'm not going to lie, not here at least, that really hurt.  Was it something I did or said?  Or something I didn't do?  I don't know.  And I really miss him.  He was part of my life for so long, he was there for so much.  Talking to him and knowing that I had his support was one of the things that helped me get through my grandfather's passing.  I miss that.  I miss him, I miss talking to him and I just miss know that I had someone there for me.

Ok and we have another depressing post.  But in happier news Blair came home yesterday!  She'll be home for a week and then next Monday I'm driving back to Georgia with her and I stay till the 2nd!  WOOT!  We'll be in the same state(s) for two whole weeks!